Monthly Archives: October 2010

a new lease

because i grew up here, i know austin and austin knows me. there used to be places i could go in this town to be anonymous. now i know too many people to be anonymous anywhere, because everywhere i go, someone knows me. … Continue reading

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last confessions of october

confession: i listen to a single song on repeat for days (and weeks). the song i’ve been listening to this week reminds me of someone specific, someone i hadn’t seen in a mighty long year, someone i saw unexpectedly last night, … Continue reading

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wiser

for the past 12 hours i’ve been writing and revising a venting email in my draft box. (note to self and others:  i strongly encourage venting grievances, but leave the “to:” box blank to avoid accidentally sending it.) the first … Continue reading

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hot sticky tears

standing in the kitchen yesterday afternoon, a screeching moan strangling the world’s heart folds me in half. i grab onto the stove, because i can’t stand up to this pain. next, hot sticky tears burn cracks into my face. then, more tears and tears and tears cry grief through crashing waves and echoes inside me, outside me, around … Continue reading

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confessions on the cusp of scorpio

confession:  in my perma-quest for less stuff, i filled three bags from my closet last saturday (mostly shoes) and donated them. if you’re looking to buy size 9 stilettos, hurry to the shelves of austin-area goodwill stores.   confession:  i’m tracking the delivery … Continue reading

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suicide watch

someone close to me admitted his suicide plan last wednesday night. a suicide plan, detailing the where and how, is a helluvalot more dire than “suicidal thoughts.”  i know, because i’ve kept a plan in my back pocket for emergency use since … Continue reading

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birthday boots

after publicly declaring my intent to celebrate my birthday for the following six months but also being a mind-changing libra, last night a friend asked if i was still celebrating. people keep telling me “happy birthday,” but it didn’t feel like my birthday … Continue reading

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