i left on thursday, later than planned, hours later. enough
later that i poured a cocktail and waited longer before
i left. i drove
in traffic, not much traffic, and i didn’t mind,
since i planned to stop in ft. worth and ride the bull at billy bob’s.
there are two mechanical bulls i could ride any night in austin, bulls
i haven’t ridden. i didn’t ride the one at billy bob’s either, i didn’t even
i skinnydipped in the hotel’s saltwater pool at sunset. nobody saw my naked
body, even though anyone
who walked by
from their hotel window would have seen. i floated
on my back and watched clouds moving above me. i didn’t want to get
i’m never ready to exit a pool i have
to myself, naked and alone.
i never want to lift my head partway
submerged, ears underwater, listening
to heartbeats between
breaths in and out,
while my body is supported from beneath by water
heavier than me, lifting and never letting me down.