Monthly Archives: September 2011

carrying the body

i was asked earlier this week if people burn out on my intensity. the simple answer is yes, but only as much as anyone who is eventually repelled by the quality that originally attracted him. i’m a joy baby by … Continue reading

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confessions of a girl

confession: my inner child is a juvenile delinquent. (credit to c for identifying that for me.) confession: my straight gay boyfriend doesn’t want to be called that. (he doesn’t adequately appreciate the perfect peachiness of that appellation.) we agreed on … Continue reading

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avoiding

i haven’t picked up a pen in several days. i have a pen and paper with me in every room and in the car. i can always write, but i haven’t written. when i avoid writing, i assume that i’m … Continue reading

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bleed and burn

sit at the blank page, open a vein, and bleed. this is the only writing advice that works for me. this is the only way i know how to write well. even then, most of what i write isn’t written … Continue reading

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monday confessions

confession: i talk to myself. outloud. all day long. i spend most of the day alone in my dark otherwise-quiet cave with two cats who ignore my one-sided dialog. usually i don’t notice that i’m talking outloud because it is … Continue reading

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kisses

this morning i woke with these questions in my head: if i died today, what would be left unsaid? what would be left undone? at 4 a.m. sitting on my straight gay boyfriend’s couch, i’m certain that i’ll live to … Continue reading

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confessions of a shattered beer

confession: for the past couple days, all i can do is cry and lay in bed, not sleeping. i can’t eat. i’m accidentally model thin again…and wondering if i ought to book a few modeling gigs in the next week … Continue reading

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