Monthly Archives: October 2011

previewing the end

if you previewed the end at the beginning, would you continue? i ask myself this question at the beginning of every new relationship, project, and adventure. if i had known at the beginning how the last few relationships would end, … Continue reading

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reckless words and reckless silence

i’ve begun a mental health cleanse, fasting from negative thoughts, clearing out the mind chatter that clogs up creativity. when i quiet the negative thoughts, there are no thoughts at all, not at first anyway. if i can’t think negative … Continue reading

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last confessions of october

confession: bulimia doesn’t go away, no matter how long it has been since a bulimic has puked. bulimia is an addiction, like alcoholism. sober alcoholics don’t quit being alcoholics just because they quit drinking. non-puking bulimics don’t quit being bulimics … Continue reading

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doubt

it has been to difficult to post blogs this week, not because they are difficult to write, but because i don’t know who will be reading them. someone new has been reading this blog and called me “stupid” for writing … Continue reading

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confession of a new goal

confession: my personal path to enlightenment is unconditional love. i have direct experience and know-how for giving and receiving unconditional love with one glitch: reciprocity. i can easily extend unconditional love when i receive it in return. i maintain multiple … Continue reading

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adding value

throughout an unlucky childhood, the shimmery sky-gods granted me a few lucky breaks. one of these was that i lost my virginity at the age of 15 to a boy who fiercely loved me. that boy knows me in a … Continue reading

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softening confessions

confession: waiting one more day is one of my wisest life philosophies. tuesday wasn’t significantly better than monday, but is was better enough to deliver me to wednesday, and wednesday feels somewhere in the neighborhood of grateful to be alive. … Continue reading

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