Monthly Archives: July 2012

ennui

  presenting symptoms:  grief, depression, addiction, chronic physical ailments. underlying problem:  ennui. suspected cause of problem: individual human insignificance and life’s inherent meaninglessness. proposed solution:  moving to portland, san francisco, or tokyo. likely outcome of proposed solution: because moving my … Continue reading

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confessions from portland

confession: mile-high waterfall spray gets my skin, shirt, socks, and shoes wetter than standing beneath a shower head with all my clothes on. five hours later, i’m still wet. i think i’m getting moldy. confession: watching a bald eagle flying … Continue reading

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singing with aretha

listening to aretha belting out sad songs to balance my happy mood. imagining a magical cooter that can cook citrine bursts of crystal sunshine, like pearls from oysters. waking from a short nap with a long dream. drinking iced tea and … Continue reading

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confessions from berlin

confession: for five days in berlin i walked, i slept, i laughed, i played. for five days in berlin, i sunk deeper into myself, deeper into peacefulness and calm. for five days in berlin, i practiced listening to myself, to … Continue reading

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berlin

if i lived in germany, i would live in berlin. if i lived in berlin, i would have a black cat that spent its days sitting in my apartment window and a well-behaved small dog that would follow me without … Continue reading

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confessions before berlin

confession: in a few hours i am flying to visit my best friend who lives in berlin. last night i sent her an email that read “i am packing very badly. i’m not in the mood to pack and i … Continue reading

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today is the day

today is the first day i’m living addiction-free. today  i’ve quit diet carbonated beverages, chocolate, and that relationship i’ve been trying to end since last october. today i’m free. at 9:08 am, this freedom comes easily. this freedom is easy … Continue reading

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