Monthly Archives: December 2012

end of 2012

on the last day of 2012, i have some words left to say. my friend s canceled december about one-third of the way into the month. i took her at her word. i needed december canceled. a few days before … Continue reading

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confessions before the mayan calendar ends

confession: music has been playing loudly in my apartment today as i attempt to shut out my thoughts. my thoughts spike into painful directions fueled by hurt feelings.   confession: as a verbal processor, i hear myself repetitively recount events … Continue reading

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last friday

Warning: this post might sound crazy. i might be crazy. or i might be going sane. last friday i thought i was going to die. i can’t remember how many times i’ve thought i was going to die, but last … Continue reading

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confessing connection

confession: i abhor polite conversation. talking about superficial things or speaking about things that could be meaningful in a superficial way drains me. i avoid polite conversation as often as possible. because i can’t always avoid the situations in which … Continue reading

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scary dreams

“If your dreams do not scare you they are not big enough.” –Ellen Johnson Sirleaf my dreams had become too small. my dreams shrank and strangled me. my dreams selected a specific person who presented me with a poisoned apple. … Continue reading

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curandera masseuse

weeks ago my therapist told me to get a massage and to expect tears to flow while laying on the massage table. i couldn’t go weeks ago because i was stuck in the old unworthiness-of-kindness and undeserving-of-self-care beliefs. i had … Continue reading

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