Monthly Archives: January 2013

confessions on moving day

confession: i’m disappointed that the new apartment isn’t “nicer.” i can hear street traffic. the bathroom walls have painted over water damage. the kitchen cabinets are scratched. it ain’t a pretty apartment, but it is bigger and new to me. … Continue reading

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redemption

i threw out my high school yearbooks today. i don’t know why i’ve kept them this long. i hated high school. i booked reservations at big bend national park for three weeks after my surgery, because i expect to be … Continue reading

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confessions on my way out

confession: i move to a new apartment in six days. i have surgery to remove a kidney in nine days. i’m getting rid of stuff that i don’t need and isn’t helping me. confession: i took a hammer to a … Continue reading

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secret code

let go, let go, let go. i hear these words inside my head. i don’t call them up, they come to me. does that happen to you? do words enter your thoughts and repeat, like a secret code that you … Continue reading

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yesterday

yesterday would have been my anniversary with my ex-wife. what happens to the days that would have been celebrated as anniversaries when two people are no longer together? what happens to the love and loss and anger and grief and … Continue reading

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confessing freedom

confession: after sending out a plea for help, i received help in the form of emails, text messages, hugs, and dances. thank you. the help offered was exactly what i needed, without knowing exactly what to ask for. thank you … Continue reading

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a plea for help

at 2:30am i recognized the thick heart-threatening trouble. i had already finished heaving, shaking, rocking, and wailing from sorrow. i leaned into the mirror and stared into my eyes, asking my future self to guide me. i often ask my … Continue reading

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