Monthly Archives: January 2012

“In the spiritual path, joy and suffering follow one another like two feet, and you come to a point of not minding which ‘foot’ is on the ground. You realize, on the contrary, that it is extremely uncomfortable hopping all … Continue reading →

last night as i was driving downtown to go dancing, i heard the song on the radio that i’ve assigned to my new relationship. two minutes into the song, i began thinking about my old relationship. three minutes later i … Continue reading →

confession: ex-husbands–i don’t have any. i don’t want any. i didn’t want an ex-wife either, but i got one. i have two, in fact. sometimes you get what you never wanted. i’ve got to practice more grace with that. confession: … Continue reading →

years ago i started blogging as an exercise in revealing myself. i was afraid of being known, which covered a deeper fear of being unlovable if people truly knew me. i revealed most of the unlovable parts: addictions (including an eating … Continue reading →

“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.” –Lao Tzu this quotation floats behind the screen of my mind when i hear my voice raising. in one of my significant relationships, i hear my … Continue reading →

confession: he used the word “deleterious” correctly in common conversation. that turns me on.  confession: i’ve never used the word “deleterious” in common conversation, although i’ve written it into college papers. confession: smart is hot. smarter is hotter. i search for people’s … Continue reading →

i spent saturday with more than a dozen of my spirit grandmothers. these women acutely, directly nurture my soul. they love me without reason. they celebrate my presence. they assume that i am much younger than my years. they don’t believe me when i … Continue reading →

note to self: pink floyd’s “wish you were here” (or radiohead’s cover of same song) is NOT the song to listen to on repeat on the 10th anniversary of the day vows were exchanged with the wife, the vows that are … Continue reading →

confession: i came home last night to a fed ex shipment box of flowers waiting on my doorstep. my heart dropped. my throat went dry. there is only one person who orders me flowers online and has them shipped to my door. … Continue reading →

i wrote two blogs yesterday and posted neither of them. they were weird. i am weird. already it is tuesday afternoon. this week is a harder week than most because it ends in an anniversary that i no longer celebrate. … Continue reading →